Why do I hate myself so much?

I'm 14 and a girl.I've never liked my face.I've never felt pretty and have only had one boyfriend.I don't even look for a boyfriend anymore,I don't want one.But I want a nose job and a lip job and not to mention my body!I want a job and I want gastric byp surgery(I'm 180 lbs and I'm 5'8).People say that I am skinny but to me,I'm fat.And my sister and sometimes my mom always point my weight out.I just wish I was 80 lbs,I really do.I don't even like being the race that I am.I wish I were white.I don't think I'm depressed,I'm a straight A student.But I feel like everything is wrong with me and I've felt like this for years.The only things that I like about me is my intelligence and my hair,that's it.I'm ugly,I'm horrid looking.When boys are asked do they like me,I just answer for them.I tell them that I know they think I'm ugly and that they don't like me.I know I'm ugly.And that's why I want to go get plastic surgery when I get older.Is this normal?How can I feel better about myself?No matter how much I exercise,it doesn't work.I just woke up this morning and ate some ice cream,I felt bad and intentionally threw it back up.I don't think I'm bulimic but I do throw up my food once in a while,intentionally because I feel fat and bad or eating it.