I need help?

people call me gay but am not. i talk like i girl wich i hate my voice am not having voice changing when i was i baby i had that and i don't have like my friends do like i don't go i like her out loud is not normal for me to do that. i like girls but i don't say it to people why do they need to now and i a nice but not like most guys my mom tought me different what should i do i don't now am gay. AM 13